How I humbled myself

I had to take accountability for my own actions.  Questioning everything about myself.  How I talked or the things and people that I criticized.  I realized that I was repeating patterns.  I was becoming everything that I was against.  Sometimes in life we don’t know any better.  I grew up in a household where this is the normal thing to do.  Comparing things or other people to others.  But when it’s directed towards comparing something or somebody towards me, I don't like it.  So why was I doing it? I had to take a deep look in the mirror and realized I was doing it because I was clearly unhappy with my life.  But nobody is to blame for that but myself.  I’m responsible for the life that has led me to this point.  

I grew up watching stand up comedy where anybody can get it.  From comedians like D.L Hughley to David Chappelle.  Making all types of jokes or comments that may be offensive to some.  If you know anything about me or the things I said,  that post I made was the most selfless thing that I've ever done.  Essentially it was me taking blame for my actions.  Taking blame for the person that I have become.  Taking blame and holding myself accountable for the current situation that I was in.  There is nobody to blame but myself.  The last thing that I truly want to do is offend anybody at all.  I felt terrible about all the things that i’ve said or have done in my life that were inconsiderate or offensive.

Sometimes in life we just need to take a deep look in the mirror.  Evaluate the sides of you that you don’t even want to encounter.  Battle your demons! I promise you that it is worth it.  I have humbled myself in ways that I never knew was possible.  I don’t even feel right judging others or criticizing things anymore.  It’s like who am I to judge?  How dare I judge somebody who is actually trying.  Some may now consider me modest,  I know I'm a good person but I prefer to just treat others how I'd like to be treated.  That’s all I wanted this entire time.  

I feel like there’s certain things that you can’t even talk to people about without them getting upset.  These are the exact situations that I avoid.  The best way to counter this is by only consuming good, positive news.  Now I don’t have to initiate a conversation by talking about something negative.  This is how I plan to remain humble.  I suggest you do the same.