Learn How To Appreciate & Not Take Things Fore-granted

Sometimes in life we seek and seek

Not realizing that everything we could ever wanted is already within

See I was once like that

I didn’t know how to appreciate life

Or appreciate what was in front of me

I was so used to be around people who didn’t know how to do the same

So I natrually absorbed everybodys emotions that were around me

All I felt was pain

All I felt was darkness

Every time I had a bright idea, no body was there to support me

So I doubted myself

All I knew was trauma

Thats all I had to go by

I was told to worry about what others think instead of the opposite

So I learned how to mask all of my emotions

Not realizing that causes more damage then anything

When I was minding my own business, it felt as if people targetted me

Why is this happening to me?

It happened so often, that I began to doubt myself

I see this happening with people far to often

It took me years to realize that the only reason why people are doing this is because they have something going on with them

The people who are actually successful and doing good, they want to see you win

Only people who have their own demons that they are battling, want to bring you down right with them

& The devil will throw whatever he can at you

I’ve been through the storms, I know exactly what it feels like to have all the odds stacked against you

Some people question God

How can he allow this to happen?

Well that’s because God is trying to develop your chracter

The more and more you play victim

The harder and harder the devil will swing.

I just had to accept it

Clearly, it’s just a lesson

I’ve been through so many battles I learned to take them as they come

It use to be to the point where I would overreact

& then quickly go to doing things that would sabotage me or my health

It’s always going to be a battle but the moment you realize  is when everything shifts

I am an Empath but all the darkness I went through in life, made me develop a level of apathy

I realized that I had to stop

If i want to grow and evolve, I needed to stop doing certain patterns

If I wanted to have a respectful relationship with my family or with God then I need to learn how to control my emotions

I had to learn how to treat others better

Clearly I didn’t like when people were mistreating or talking down on me

So why was I doing it to other people?

I had to accept responsibility

I had to hold myself accountable

At the end of the day, nobody is going to come save you

You need to be willing to make these changes yourself

Now the storms and battles are going to come

Adversity is apart of life, there is no avoiding that

But I learned how to not care what people think

I learned, regardless what I do or say, people are going to have their opinion about me

So who cares

If I can make God happy, then i’ll gladly do what it takes to be more righteous

I’ve learned how to love

I’ve learned how to be more giving

I’ve learned how to be a better person

So i’m thankful for the lessons learned

At the end of the day, if you aren’t willing to grow then you are going to grow old repeating the same patterns that you once did

I’m glad I changed for the better

& it doesn’t matter if nobody else sees it

Because God see’s everything

And if he can see your growth, then that is the only thing that matters

Don’t waste your life chasing the materialistic things

None of that matters

Sure it can be nice and all

But learn how to really appreciate life

The only thing I wish is that I didn’t  take things foregranted

I didn’t appreciate how extremely lucky and blessed I was to have a beautiful family

Some people dream and pray for the things that I have

How could I be so stupid to take things fore-granted

All I know is that i’m just grateful to still be here standing

God saved my life and I will forever be grateful for that