Let Go Of That Trauma

I let social anxiety get the worst of me. It was so bad that it led to problems in the bedroom. Not only that, there were these constant stomach issues that I had.

I was convinced I had a problem but my doctor told me that I don’t have stomach issues, its social anxiety. That is when I realized that all these other problems that I was having in life was all linked to my social anxiety.

It was so bad that I woudln’t go into certain establishments if it were too packed. Anxiety took control of my life where I wouldn’t leave my house unless it was dark outside.

I hated myself so much that I wanted to be seen by as few people as possible. It took me years to get over this (and I still struggle at times)

But I had to tell myself that these people don’t care about me.

Which for the most part is true. I walk into an establishment and these people didn’t pay me any mind. These are the techniques that I would use to cope.

Its a sad way to live and I wasted so much of my life worrying what people think. Sometimes I wish I could have my time back but the only thing I can do is take it as a life lesson.

I didn’t know then but I was holding onto trauma, that affected me then and still affects me now

If I were to do something as simple as confront those problems, then I may have turned out much differently but that is out my control. I can only go by what I know now and that is why i’m here to help those who are struggling