The Power Of Forgiveness

Sometimes in life its just easier to point the finger

Put the blame on everybody else but our self

“If this person didn’t do this to me” blah blah blah

Been there done that and lets keep it real

That type of mindset gets you nowhere

I spent years upon years pointing the finger

Holding onto resentment and bitterness

It caused me to hold onto pain for so long that I became numb to it

I had to learn how to forgive

Once I realized that these people who hurt me have not changed

They literally have the same exact mentality that they had years ago

Some people just are never going to change

Some aren’t even willing to change

They are so stuck in their ways that they don’t know any better

The faster you realize this, the easier it will be to forgive

I realized i’m still holding on to stuff that these people would never hold themself accountable for

Not that I even want to address the situation but some people see no wrong in their actions

Not everybody is willing to change because that requires alot of sacrifice

You have to change the way you view things

You have to change the way you look at life

You can say you want to change all you want but you will get absolutely nowhere until you learn how to forgive

I had to do it for my own wellbeing

& it’s still a struggle

It’s like I learned how to forgive everybody who has done me wrong

I forgave everybody who disrespected me

But theres one person that I find it extremely difficult to forgive

& That person is myself

I’m trying to but its hard to forgive myself when i’ve made extremely poor choices

How could I be so stupid?

How could I do the things i’ve done knowing damn well I have a beautiful family

The hardest part of forgiving is when you see the results of the actions to your poor decisions 

That is the hardest part of the spiritual journey

Some days I can forgive myself

Others I simply can’t

But I’m still trying and my story still isn’t finished

That truly is what keeps me going

Not only do they deserve better

But I deserve better

I gotta give myself credit. Atleast I am trying

I wake up every single day trying to be a better person than I was yesterday

Even if nobody sees it

None of that matters to me

I only hope that God can see it

I hope God can see how hard that i’m truly trying

I truly want to be a better person

Which is why i’m willing to take a look in the mirror

And hold myself accountable for my actions

I don’t need all the material things

I just need to stop being so hard on myself

I pray that one day I can be forgiven

I’m not a bad person

I may have done things that harmed others mental health

But it was not intentional

I was just in a dark place

I didn’t know how to get out

Atleast I can say that i’m almost there

I’m not going to give up

God saved me and I will forever be grateful for that

I know this is not your typical “I overcame” type of story

Just keeping it real

In life we never stop learning

And the spiritual journey will continue to go on

I’m just sharing my experience

Even with all that, I would say one thing

Learning to forgive others has helped me tremendously 

I’m no longer spending my days being bitter

The power of forgiveness is real

Learn how to forgive and most importantly, learn how to let go